It all happened so quickly. The fears that I thought were gone came back and flooded my thoughts. I wanted to escape but I couldn’t. I wanted to run away, scream, and yell. When you deal with fear, the fear doesn’t have to be rational. It controls you and renders you incapable of functioning.
As my feelings mount. I try to call my husband, my first lifeline. I finally reach him. He is used to the panic I face. He knows and although he doesn’t understand always, he can reach me. He knows when I am cracking and coming undone. He calms me with his voice, reminding me he would be home soon.