Balancing time on the internet and the time in the real world is a struggle for me. I have committed to taking off a day a week to unplug and recharge. I originally started with Mondays, but I finally realized that Sundays really are the best day of the week to have a Sabbath rest for me. It truly is wonderful to not be on my computer. This is especially true since I have started blogging, which causes me to spend more time on the internet. Committing to one day off of the computer a week has created a space to rest for me. This has become very replenishing for me and a needful break from something that I love, but that I need to have limits on.
I find though, that during the week, I still look to Facebook and Twitter for validation. I search for validation, when I really should be finding it in God. A large part of me is a people pleaser. I want people to pat me on the back. I want people to tell me how good of a job I am doing. I wish I could rip this part out of me. I want to follow God when he says to stop finding approval from people, but rather, to find approval in Him. This is a sin that so easily entangles me.
When I feel this deep burning inside of me to find affirmation from others, I am trying to remember who I am in Christ: I am a treasured possession. I am royal. I am chosen. I am dearly loved.
What if every time I felt the need for validation from others, instead of checking my email or Facebook, I turned to God instead? I want to let His grace define me. He saved us, not because of the righteous things we have done, but because of his mercy. I need to live in that freedom of forgiveness, knowing that I don’t need to earn His approval, and I certainly don’t need to earn anyone else’s approval.
I don’t want anything to stick to me but God’s grace. It is for freedom that Christ has set you free. Stand firm, then and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.
I need you Jesus. I don’t want to be like King Saul, who was more fearful of the Israelites than he was fearful of you. I care a lot about what people think of me. I care so much more than I wish I did. Free me of this burden. Help me to find verses that show me who I am in you. May I remember that I am special to you and that you love me no matter what I do for you. You love me even if I mess up. God, I want to experience more of your grace. You know what a rule follower I am. This gets in the way of experiencing your love and grace. God, I ask that not by might, nor by power, but by your Spirit you will help me to lean on your love and grace more than I lean on finding approval and validation from any other source. Jesus I cannot do this without you. I cannot do this in my own strength. Lord, you have placed your Spirit inside of me. Your Spirit will help me to live in your love and grace.