Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
2 Corinthians 5:17
God has taken me on a wild faith journey these last few months-and He continues to do so. I am learning this new rhythm of trusting God and letting go of my life so that He can play the notes of the symphony He can create when I allow Him to take over. It’s a rhythm, a balance, a pace, of trusting God , and then moving. I pray about His ways and then I take the vulnerable step of faith. I believe God will work out the details or stop me if it’s the wrong way.
God is asking me to capture my dreams, and if it’s a dream that He has given, to take the step of faith to make it happen. What do I want? What is holding me back from having that dream?
His calling is bigger than my own abilities. At times it seems daunting. But God will give me every single thing I need – not with what my own two hands can come up with-but through the community of believers and through the power of His Spirit.
God is asking me to humble myself. To ask for help from others when I need it. That I can no longer serve the god of self-sufficiency.
God often asks us to let go of things that hurt us, old patterns and ways that are no longer beneficial to our relationship with Him. Ultimately, nothing else matters other than our relationship with the Lord. Idolizing our relationships with others entangles us to pleasing them rather than pleasing God. How can we love God with all of our heart if we are idolizing someone else more that our savior Jesus? How can we love our neighbor unless we love our self? How can we love our children unless we believe in our own worthiness found in Jesus? How can we take care of our neighbor unless we are taking care of our own needs?
Oftentimes I feel guilt or shame when I take care of myself. Creating a space to write. Or how important time with Jesus in solitude is before taking care of other people in my life. The enemy uses guilt and shame to keep us from our abundant life that is our inheritance through Christ.
The closer I get to the Lord, the more gentle His voice sounds. It’s not His voice that has changed, it’s that I wasn’t listening correctly, I was confused because of other voices in my life.
The Lord is asking me to abide with Him more and worry about less. I worry about the next steps of faith He is calling me. Are they the right way? I bathe my requests in prayer and then I trust. I just trust knowing that my worries will do nothing.
He is calling me away from perfectionism. Perfectionism can keep me from doing anything because I cant do it the way I want it to be done. I’m not always getting it right. I am trusting God to fill in those spaces and mistakes I am making with Himself. I am not perfect nor will I ever be. I always want to point people to the One who was perfect. Jesus, my savior. My friend. The One who calls me Beloved, who encourages me and loves me.
He is asking me to believe that He will catch me when I fall. I can’t get lost when He is guiding me.
As I step out in faith, I may have to scale a mountain but I know that the view from the top is worth it.
Lord, let me go ahead and be who you really created me to be-the old has gone the new has come. Help me to get rid of old habits and negative patterns that keep me from my relationship with you. Give me courage to take that next vulnerable step on my journey with You.